During my time on the Climate March I have come to realize that the climate crisis is more dire than I could have ever imagined. The reality of the situation has affected me very deeply and has begun to lead me down paths I didn't even know existed. Since this transformation in my thinking about the future has been very personal, I thought it would be more appropriate to share this in a letter rather than a typically-formatted blog post. The following is an excerpt from a letter I wrote to Chris, the Climate March's Colorado State Coordinator and my companion, while on the bus from Montpelier, Ohio to New York City.
"... I look
forward to our time together in Washington, D.C., which I hope will be
more thorough and personal before our next long separation.
While all this is going on in my mind, I also have to remind myself of the present and to remain in it.
yet, this entire movement we're in is about the future. We're trying to
convince all of humanity to think beyond themselves and to think bigger
and farther than the present moment. We're trying to take on this huge
task so a future can exist where humans and the Earth can coexist
happily and peacefully. Or else we go extinct and take a lot of others
with us ... we already have.
Chris, I have learned so much on this
March; more than I could have ever imagined. I have learned from you,
my fellow Marchers, the communities we have passed through, news
articles, documentaries and more. Every day there is something new to
discover. The more I learn the more I realize how dire the situation is
and how much there is to be done. It sounds like you're having a similar
experience at American University. If you're responding to it similarly
to how I am, I imagine you must be feeling very heavy-shouldered right
now. I'm glad we're in each other's lives to help carry the load.
was inspired to write to you at 11:30 p.m. at night after we finished
playing the documentary "Planet Ocean" on the bus. The film built from
the ground up how life started in the oceans and became what it was,
from phytoplankton to us. And then it turned and proceeded to show us
how humans have and are dismantling everything nature created from our
level down. It was shocking and disgusting to see the reality of what
we've done. There are fishing nets that are 25 miles long. 25 miles.
Bluefin tuna are expected to be extinct soon. Jellyfish are taking over
the waters because we have removed their predators. That doesn't even
scratch the surface.
Right at the end of the movie we had a rest
break, and Gavain and Kelsey and I sat on a bench together outside the
gas station. Tilly was asleep in Kelsey's arms. I asked Gavain a
question I'd been wanting to ask him for a while: if he regrets bringing
his children into this world, knowing what he knows. He said although
he and Dana are actively raising their children to be fighters so they
can face this age, if he had known what he does now before they were
born he wouldn't have had them so they could be "spared of an existence
in this world."
He had to get up and leave, but I turned to Kelsey and told her for
the first time in my life I was having second thoughts about having
children, and we broke down and cried together right there on the bench.
Eventual motherhood is a part of both of our identities. Having that
stolen from us in cruel and unfair, but it seems to be happening. If we
love our world, how can we contribute to overpopulation? If we love our
children, how can we dump this mess upon them?
I'm not sure yet if I'm ready to abandon motherhood entirely. But tonight was the first night where I considered it seriously.
I'm so scared. And I'm so ashamed of my species. And yet, I must remain
hopeful or we will surely be lost. Without hope, we cannot possibly
face this task.
"Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced." —James Baldwin
so glad I have you in my life. I'm so glad I am not alone in my fear
and the feeling of being overwhelmed. I'm so glad I have someone to
share these burdens with, someone to help me carry them and someone who I
can help carry.
We have to do this. It's our last chance ..."
found that one of the hardest parts of tackling climate change is
accepting responsibility for what has happened to our planet and
allowing time and energy to grieve. The Climate Marchers have held a
couple of spiritual gatherings to allow for grief and lamenting, one of
which I participated in while we camped in Cumberland, Iowa. To
understand this concept better, I would highly recommend a fantastic
article I recently read which encourages us to turn our despair into
action. It can be read here.
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